So what we have learned most of all, is not a way to find a G-dly feeling, but that all feeling is G-dly. The clarity, the confusion, the gratitude, the temptation, the anger, the contentment. As this logic is peeling away our grip from the impossible endeavor of controlling our personal world, what remains is the inherently uninhibited ability to make moral choices in the direction of what we know to be just and true.
This is our free will. Not to create, but to guide our fate.
This message is deep and may not resonate at all. This makes little difference. What matters is your commitment to truth, using your free will to pursue it, engaging whichever medium you fancy, that is key.
It is only G-d that can give you life.
May you and your family be sealed into the book of Life.